OUR RAINBOW BABY IS ONE!!

Where do I begin?? Dylan has` been the highlight of all of our lives since he’s been born.  He is just such a cool little dude, and SOO adorable, we still ooohhh and aaahhhh over him all day long!  

There was a period of time after losing the other babies (in 2014) when I couldn't imagine feeling this kind of happiness again….but THIS…this is why they call them rainbow babies, he is a rainbow in our lives that wouldn’t have been able to have made such an impact on us had we not gone through the losses.

I can’t quite believe he’s a whole year old already, it goes so fast.  Part of me wants him to just stay my little baby, but the other part of me is LOVING how much fun he is as he gets bigger, along with his big personality showing! 

I never let any of the other kids co-sleep with us, but Dylan does.  All the others took good naps in their crib, Dylan still naps attached to me in a wrap.  He still nurses several times during the night, which means it’s been a year since I slept through the night.  It’s never taken me this long to lose the baby weight, still working on it. It’s much harder to baby proof this time around, I don't know if it’s because he’s just into more than the others or if it’s because the others leave their stuff all over the place.  I have trouble getting things done because he wants to be with me all the time! There may be a lot of things about having him that make life more difficult but those things are nothing compared to everything he brings to our lives.

I am still feeling like he is our last baby, which means this is the last time we will be celebrating a "Babies First Birthday", he has already had all his first holidays.  It is bittersweet.  Kinda makes we want to cry actually, I get emotional thinking about fast he's growing up.

Looking back through his scrapbook over this past year (+pregnancy) I am almost brought to tears by how much fear I felt at times through the pregnancy, how perfect he was when he was born, how small he was just one year ago, how much he has grown, but man my heart just explodes with thankfulness.  He isn’t just the rainbow, he's the whole pot of gold!